Another Angel...

            It took me five years to finally decide to have another baby. I am 35 years old already while my husband is 50. We had our first daughter unexpectedly and she brought us so much happiness but life is not so easy and happiness always had to go with some uncertainties and problems. I, myself always had second thoughts of having another baby because I want to give my first-born the best life can offer. I wanted to send her to the best preschool, I wanted to always provide the things that would make her happy.

            As five years went by, I came to realize that parents would not be always here to be with their children. In my case where I had my first daughter in my early 30's, it would always create questions at the back of my mind; how about if I will not be around in the future when she would need me the most? how if she has no one to turn to in her most difficult time in the future? and a lot of questions...

             Last February I finally got pregnant with my second baby, she is now 1 month old and also a girl. She is a great blessing once again but also a great responsibility. I had to stop working to personally look after her because my husband is not too hands-on when it comes to infants so we have to set a division of labor. Since I gave birth thru C-SEC, I am advised to rest for the whole 3 months before I can go back to normal life and attend to my usual responsibilities. I am looking after the baby while hubby do everything in the house including being a nanny to my first-born.

            Financial responsibility is but another thing, it is not very easy to have a lot of needs but less money. It is sad and disappointing. But when I think of what will happen in the future, I can do nothing but to be grateful that God again gave me another angel; basically not only for me and hubby but for her sister.